मेसेज ऑफ़ थे डे.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child.
When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I
shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

-Quoted from Slippy167-

In 2 minds...

Within one day ive had such mixed emotions, Feelings for one man and a realisation of who i am. I finally brought myself to go to the cinema alone but ended up going with my 2 sisters and their friends and being +10 years older than most of them i became the "chaperone". Now i didnt mind until i realised how sad i must have looked. The man in the cinema with several children, babysitting. How do i find a man like that?? Im all for children but in that situation i would have liked a gentleman with me!! and secondly theres been a man on the scene but not quite there. We've text and met up for a few coffees but nothings happening, We only ever bump into each other on facebook or in town. So i think thats a dead end.

Moan Moan Moan.

And whilst im here i might aswell moan about my "friend". Weve been friends for 3 years in october. Spending almost 6 of the 7 days of the week together. She gets a boyfriend and thats me out the window. I only ever hear from her if shes lonely, if shes got nothing to do, if hes not coming round to see her (Which is never). Even her family have replaced me with him. It hurts and she doesnt even see it. Shes oblivious. Shes in "love".

Hopefully sleep will help me not to dwell on the problems at the moment.

xxxxxx

A romance most dead....

So recently ive had a string of men come into my life and abuse that which i hold most dear. My love.

1. Was a straight man looking for a bit of fun, which he forgot to tell me both at the start of our liason.
2. Was an incredibly antisocial man who would only talk to me on msn but when it came to meeting was only after sex.
3. Dumped me many moons ago then started talking to me recently about sex and what hed like me to do to him which scared me to the hilt.

Maybe im going wrong somewhere, Maybe i should pursue this "sex" thing. Maybe in this modern age sex is the way to a true "modern" gentlemans heart.
We are fully out of the Age of gentlemen and the breed is a dying race. Somewhere along the line i will have to succumb to the pleasures unpure but for now i will be keeping my sacred love for that prince charming who will sweep me off my feet or for me to sweep him off his feet.

What happened to holding doors open for people, Making tea and coffee for people in their time of need and hugging those who we love for no reason?

Hold on.

xxx

A trip A dream A thought

" I miss you, I miss your smile, When i think of you i know everything will be alright "

3 Months today i lost the greatest woman in my life.
Nanny K xx


This time tomorrow i will be stuffing my face with MacDonalds and starbucks trying not to jay walk. Enjoying the lights in the city that never sleeps. The faces walking past, the buildings towering alongside me. Anonymous to everyone.
Of course i will be in New York Manhattan.
5 days of pure bliss.
Museums + galleries
Sketchbook and pen
Dollars

Back wednesday

xxx

Promises Promises

Optimism and Happyness are the key words right now.
Following on from a conversation with a friend i am sad and souless fellow. Thats a confidence boost and a half.
And after chatting to this guy then he sees me face to face and he blocks my msn and deletes my number. Oh the shame of rejection from a loser. Im starting to get this feeling im the fall back, "Maybe if im bored" kinda guy.
Dim problem
OPTIMISM and HAPPYNESS i scream as loud as possible (in my head ofcourse, god forbid i should wake the family) just to get me motivated enough to sleep.
Life is promising, Maybe im focusing on the wrong thing we shall see
Even though i seem to be moaning there are some genuine guys out there and one gave me the 2nd quote of the night

" Life is like sex lots of pushing and shoving and you still come out with nothing at the end of it........... or maybe im doing both wrong. "

He's caring sweet and a lovely guy but i fall to hard for men and im trying not to AGAIN.

-fingers crossed-

xx

(New York in 3 days, Maybe i can find some answers there ??? American Boy)

Peculiar Week...

The past few days for me have been very weird and emotional for many reasons but i shall start with saturday.
Valentines day comes once again and i find myself with the same thoughts as last year and the year before that and the year before that, you get the picture. "I wonder if anything will come through my letterbox" but alas once again the disappoint settles in my heart and i go about my day waiting on people and tidying tables.
Sunday the day after valentines on a nice long shift at work only 2 of us in to do a 5 person job is never going to work but we slugged on through
Monday HURRAH the half term has arrived and my day starts with a lie in and pretty much mooching about until..... i get home and try to find my passport, i read through the sheets outlining my trip to new york this week and find out im flying 2 days earlier than planned and im not ready for it.

On a deeper note during a drunken conversation with a very close friend of mine we ended up discussing religion and the meaning of life we deducted:-

- Everyone has a personal meaning of life, it is different for each person. Florence nightingales meaning of life was to nurse and care for people, Adolf hitlers meaning of life was to lead a nation. That sort of thing.
- Your meaning of life should benefit you ( knowledge and understanding ) but not at the cost of others "the good of the one against the good of the many"
- Learn, Live, Love EVERYTHING.

We shall not delve into our religious beliefs as these are undefined.

But i shall leave you with my quote

" Life is like a game of Mario. Play each level, Learn more and gain mushrooms or friendship. Until you reach the Ultimate boss"

xx

First blog.

Oh cripes so here it is.
I thought id get a blog for a few reasons: -

1. Boredom.
2. Lonelyness
3. The urge to air my views and opinions.

Ive spent the past few years of adulthood noticing the lack of older friends, communication and love. If im honest im thoroughly fed up.
I have amazing friends and a tight knit group who im happy to associate with but NO boyfriends or anything of that sort. Ive had the feelings and been through the motions but either ive fallen for a straight guy or a friend and it just wouldnt work out. But its ok...... it has to be ok. (C'est la vie my nan would say if she were here)

I have decided to create a space for me but others can observe. My musings, topics of the moment and urges will be written, sketched and videoed here.

The title of this blog is "Single Man seeks..." i am single (have you not worked that out?), Male and seeking anything.

xx